I struggle with fear. I always have. It's paralyzing, terrifying, life interrupting fear. And I don't mean fear of things like clowns or the dentist. I mean the kind of fear that creeps up in the middle of the night and shakes you from a dead sleep. Fear that circles around you like a fog. 

I fear getting hurt, physically and emotionally. I fear my kids or husband getting hurt. I fear that people won't listen or I won't matter. I fear the people I love getting taken from me. I fear things I have no control over.